In: 113 (proteinshake)
Out: 764
Net: - 651 calories
AWESOME day. Went to class, which was cancelled (AGAIN!!!!), so I went home and wrote on my exam until J woke up and we went to the gym. Then I went home, showered and had my proteinshake and then walked over to her place. We played cards (we ALWAYS do) and I didn't eat anything. She offered me both ricecakes and dinner. "I'm eating at home later", but when I got home it was 7.30 pm. a) I dont want to eat this late b) I'm not hungry and c) I dont want to see 69.6 again tomorrow.
I should take my dietpills more often. Gives me a hell of a lot of energy and really reduce my pain. I wont have the time to go to the gym tomorrow, but I'm doing laundry, baking and cleaning all day so I'll probably need the energy. My birthday's next tuesday and both mine and Ps relatives are coming over for coffee on sunday. Ugh.. I'm making cake, cupcakes and 3 other type of pastrys. My brothers girlfriend is going to help me out (she's a pastrycook).
08.00 - 12.00 = cleaning our apartment
12.00 - 17.00 = laundry
12.00 - ??.?? = baking and buying bakingstuff
13.00ish = eating. We've already decided on salad
Multitasking!
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
this is not the way
In: 868
Out: 600
Net: 268 calories
Morning weight was still 69.6, I hope it doesn't go up tomorrow.. Ugh. I want too lose weight. Now.
Gym tomorrow.
Out: 600
Net: 268 calories
Morning weight was still 69.6, I hope it doesn't go up tomorrow.. Ugh. I want too lose weight. Now.
Gym tomorrow.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
tuesday
In: 1667 (OMG)
Out: 373
Net: 1294 calories
So.. Had chinesefood with my parents today at lunch. Buffet.. It's "cinnamon bun day" in Sweden today, so P and I bought a bag of 5(!!!) big ones.. Ate 2 each and I feel like I'm going to be sick. Have to kick ass at the gym tomorrow to make up for it. And not eat that much, ugh..
Morning weight was 69.3.
Out: 373
Net: 1294 calories
So.. Had chinesefood with my parents today at lunch. Buffet.. It's "cinnamon bun day" in Sweden today, so P and I bought a bag of 5(!!!) big ones.. Ate 2 each and I feel like I'm going to be sick. Have to kick ass at the gym tomorrow to make up for it. And not eat that much, ugh..
Morning weight was 69.3.
Monday, October 3, 2011
lovely monday
In: 352 calories (2 suger free bars, 1 proteinshake and fishballs)
Out: 707 calories (running, cycling and weights)
Net: -355
It did not go so well with the whole "high intake" kind of thing.. Partly because I didn't know if it would go right through me (if you know what I mean..). When I left for the gym I was 69.5, I almost shit out a kg, haha. FML.
It was a lot of hard work at the gym today. I'm sent back a couple of weeks, cant run as fast as I used to 1 week ago. Going back tomorrow and I just have to think positive; it does not take long to increase your condition!
Out: 707 calories (running, cycling and weights)
Net: -355
It did not go so well with the whole "high intake" kind of thing.. Partly because I didn't know if it would go right through me (if you know what I mean..). When I left for the gym I was 69.5, I almost shit out a kg, haha. FML.
It was a lot of hard work at the gym today. I'm sent back a couple of weeks, cant run as fast as I used to 1 week ago. Going back tomorrow and I just have to think positive; it does not take long to increase your condition!
Have a nice monday guys
Todays class is cancelled which suits me very well. I ate a lot of candy yesterday so I got a really nasty stomachache right now. I'm not used to sugar anymore so it's really laxative. I've had my monday morning weigh in and scale say I'm 70.1 kg again. Last monday I was 70.8 so it's still a weeklyloss and saves my day. I'll be back at 68.9 in no time, I just worry about my high intake from now on.. I might try to keep it down, especially since I ate a shitload this weekend. I'm thinking a proteinshake when I get back from the gym and then a salad with a peanutstakething for dinner. It's like 500 calories for today? If I want/need to eat more I can do that too.
I think it's my new birthcontrollpill that's causing me to have this appetite. I crave things like all the time and feels like a trashcan when I eat. Blah.. It's a known sideeffect too but it should be gone in 2-3 months. I'm all moody too, because it's a lot higher in hormones (other hormones) than my old one.. I just hope it stops my bleedings!
I think it's my new birthcontrollpill that's causing me to have this appetite. I crave things like all the time and feels like a trashcan when I eat. Blah.. It's a known sideeffect too but it should be gone in 2-3 months. I'm all moody too, because it's a lot higher in hormones (other hormones) than my old one.. I just hope it stops my bleedings!
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Yesterday
I ate like there was no tomorrow. And I'll probably do that today too. Yesterday we went to this building with a lot of small rooms with different quests in them, you know what I mean? We went with like 10 other people to celebrate my cousin, so I did burn some calories during the day. Dont know how many.
Met this really skinny girl over at my cousins place at his b-dayparty. She was like reeeaaally skinny and reeeaaally toned. My weightloss was sort of the subjekt of the night because my cousin havn't seen me since I started losing, so it felt natural to tell her I really liked her body. We talked a lot during the evening and later on she got a little drunk and telling me she had anorexia a while back (claimed to be healthy now but didn't eat anything all night), a BMI of 17 now apparently, she had tears in her eyes while telling me her sister talked her in to get healthy again and warned me to get stuck with this diet thing.. The wierd part? It made me want to throw up and stop eating.
Woke up at 5 am this morning with a really bad bellyache. Felt like it was about to burst and I had not been eating or drinking anything for 6 hours. Was really thirsty and had a headache so I tried drinking some water which made it hurt even more. I almost cried because it was that painful. So scared.. It's gone now though.
I'm so tired of my body being a fuck up.
Met this really skinny girl over at my cousins place at his b-dayparty. She was like reeeaaally skinny and reeeaaally toned. My weightloss was sort of the subjekt of the night because my cousin havn't seen me since I started losing, so it felt natural to tell her I really liked her body. We talked a lot during the evening and later on she got a little drunk and telling me she had anorexia a while back (claimed to be healthy now but didn't eat anything all night), a BMI of 17 now apparently, she had tears in her eyes while telling me her sister talked her in to get healthy again and warned me to get stuck with this diet thing.. The wierd part? It made me want to throw up and stop eating.
Woke up at 5 am this morning with a really bad bellyache. Felt like it was about to burst and I had not been eating or drinking anything for 6 hours. Was really thirsty and had a headache so I tried drinking some water which made it hurt even more. I almost cried because it was that painful. So scared.. It's gone now though.
I'm so tired of my body being a fuck up.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
What was supposed to be SGD Day 26 (written at day 27)
Was a total fuck up. Decided to not count calories when I got home around 8 pm. I wanted to binge. So I did. In was about 1500 calories I guess. Out.. 300? A 0.2 kg gain, but that's probably liquid and food and I havn't been to the bathroom since.. monday? I just think I need a break. Wont be counting today either. Not "official" anyway. It's not like my brain will stop counting because I say so.
I think I need to eat. My body needs it. I'm scared. You know these things under my arms that I though came from working out? Like the skin had become irritated while I was at the gym? It's spreading.. Yeah.. I got it at other places on my body and it's like when you get a sunburn and your skin starts falling off, you know? Really disgusting and I'm scared it's because of some lack of either water or nutrition. Want to make my hair stop falling off too. That's why I'm going off the SGD and from monday I'm going too double my intake and eat 800-1000 calories a day.
I made it 25 days, sort of, anyway. I lost exactly 5 kgs in those 25 days. I'm still fat those 1000 calories is a maximum. Except for this weekend. As I said, I wont be counting but I will be thinking about what I put into my mouth.
I think I need to eat. My body needs it. I'm scared. You know these things under my arms that I though came from working out? Like the skin had become irritated while I was at the gym? It's spreading.. Yeah.. I got it at other places on my body and it's like when you get a sunburn and your skin starts falling off, you know? Really disgusting and I'm scared it's because of some lack of either water or nutrition. Want to make my hair stop falling off too. That's why I'm going off the SGD and from monday I'm going too double my intake and eat 800-1000 calories a day.
I made it 25 days, sort of, anyway. I lost exactly 5 kgs in those 25 days. I'm still fat those 1000 calories is a maximum. Except for this weekend. As I said, I wont be counting but I will be thinking about what I put into my mouth.
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