one step at a time

I got stuck at a number on my scale, today I was below. Horray!

I've also decided that when I've lost 14 kilos I'm going to buy a new gym-outfit. A real one, now I'm in a pair of sweatpants and an old t-shirt, the same that i've been using for.. 4 years? I guess that will be my first goal.

And my arm still hurts a lot. Fuck.

I only want to be beautiful.

stay focused

I didn't go to the gym today. My arm hurts like hell and I want to let it rest for a day. It hurts when I'm taking notes while studying so maybe it's worth it.. Fuck, why do I always get hurt or sick while trying to work out?

My boyfriend is coming home late tonight, which means that I can eat as little as I want for dinner. I'm having a big exam on friday, so on monday (when I dont need the energy as bad) I think I'll start a fruitfast. I'm thinking a fruit 5-6 times a day.

And it's starting to show, my weightloss. My stretchmarks are not so stretched anymore. But I'm still disgusting and want to cry when I see myself in a mirror. Fuck it. I'm less disgusting than I was yesterday, and I will be even less disgusting tomorrow. It doesn't matter how slow you go, as long as you don't stop, right?

yey!

The Rules:

1. Thank the person who loved you enough to bestow this gift.
2. Share seven things about yourself.
3. Bestow this honour onto 10 people you follow who are fantastic in some way.

Thank you http://ooalana.blogspot.com/ ! You are awesome!

Seven things about me
1. My boyfriend is 10 years older than me, and in May we have been dating for 2 years. Love.
2. He is also a vegetarian, which make me a part-time-vegetarian.
3. I'm studying behaviorscience at a Swedish university.
4. I cant eat liquorice, that shit make me want to puke..
5. I love to bake.
6. My headreason for loosing weight is that I nolonger fit into my favouritejeans..
7. I had pneumonia when I graduated highschool last summer. I missed my graduation and it still brings tears to my eyes..

So, i'll list the wonderful blogs that I'm following (have not found 10 yet)
1. http://behindthesmileandfat.blogspot.com/
2. http://deathlydiet.blogspot.com/
3. http://blanketofana.blogspot.com/
4. http://verlieren.blogspot.com/
5. http://iwillbeasize0.blogspot.com/
6. http://makemeperfectmakemebeautiful.blogspot.com/
7. http://ooalana.blogspot.com/
8. http://sofrenchysoskinny.blogspot.com/

binge-free

I've lost 0.6 kg since yesterday (and thats all I've lost this week). Bingeing seems even more unattractive now. I only ate like 500 calories yesterday, only lunch. I had to eat breakfast today because I'm taking painkillers, but it's like 100 calories and I'm heading for the gym when i'm done.

Let's keep this a binge-free day, right girls?

I will make this work

Yesterday I binged, again. This morning I had gained 1 kg.. It was a really great wake-up-call because me and my boyfriend was invited to coffee at a friend today, and I only had coffee! They had buns and my favoritecookies, but I did'nt touch 'em! I feel so good right now, binging is so not worth it!

Yesterday my boyfriends brother + girlfriend came over. We played Kinect (and me and my bf had taken an 45 min walk earlier) but we also had Pringles, chocolate and popcorn.. It was the stupidest thing ever too.. While I was eating it i actually told myself to stop. I did'nt want it, did'nt crave it. Was not even hungry or anything. But I could'nt stop. I had diet coke though, lol.

That mean I have not lost or gained anything yet this week.. I'll see the final result tomorrow.

29 kg to go

I managed to loose weight even though I had waffles yesterday. Only 0,3 kg, but it's better than nothing (and a lot better than gaining).

you have to fall down to get back up

So.. Me and my boyfriend made waffles today.. I'ts waffleday in Sweden.. I did'nt eat too many, did'nt count them either.. and from now on I will shape up and I will not eat anything more today. Tomorrow I'll try to eat as few calories I can with my boyfriend at home. No binging.

I did'nt gain anything since yesterday. Hope I'm still the same tomorrow. I cant wait till this foodthing is a routin. Workin' out already is, but I'm so tired nowadays so I bought some energizing pills so I can manage to work a little harder. They also contain a lot of vitamins and stuff. I hope they work, would be awesome.